As a mother, I try my best to teach my kids respect, love and adaptation. I do what I can to keep listening to the dreams my boys share so that not once, not ever do they feel like anything is impossible. I want so much for them to be passionate about their lives and the choices they make. I want to be that positive reminder to them that there is always someone on their side. In fact I want to be that for not only my children, but for my man too.
Kiijuuthlaas wants to be an entrepreneur. I am amazed daily by what comes out of that kids mouth! He is a pure genius and at times he is too smart for his own good. We have seen big changes in his attitude and personality in the past few months. He is a little person with his own ideas, boundries and expectations. I am very proud of him, and all the effort he has put into making good choices. We hit a rough patch... well, since Qwasaas was born. It almost feels like the end is near and we will soon see him transform into that respectful young man I have been yelling at him to be :S Yes, he has the qualities of an entrepreneur... watch out for his smoothie stand "coming this summer".
Qwasaas, well he is a totally different special all together. He'd have to be... putting up with the constant battles with his brother, always having to go second, and never getting to choose anything, or be better at anything truly takes a special person! I almost think he accepts it just so at the end of the night when we all go to sleep, he gets to sleep in the middle. haha. Not once has Kiijuuthlaas won that battle! Qwasaas and I are slowly getting to know each other. We didn't quite get the opportunity to form a bond like I did with the older one because I had to go back to work when he was 6months old :( But it is getting better and better each day. He is very smart, very quick, very exact and very methodical. He is full of great stories, and has always been on the cheeky side. Out of the two of them he is definitely more sensitive, but also very good at being honest and assertive :) This guy knows his boundries and is very clear when he sets them. Whatever he chooses to do in life I am certain he will excel at it. I am so very lucky to know him :)
Giitsaanaagas, sigh. How did we get to where we are today? At 21 years of age he was exactly what I needed... and today... we have found ourselves leading totally different lives, speaking totally different languages, and chasing totally different dreams. Funny how that happens to two people even when they live in the same house! I like to blame him for all the problems we have, but I know its not true. It's just a case of leaving things until it was too late. Too bad really. I truly love him, but I can't compromise who I am to make him happy, and the fact of the matter is it wouldn't be fair to ask him to compromise for me. So we sit here in a stalemate, no one wanting to make a move. We have come to the agreement that our relationship is not what it once was. We have at least made it that far. It's working... for today.
So that is that! We live in a nice house, we drive nice cars, we have nice kids, and we are nice to each other. Nice, but not perfect...
The workouts this past week were awesome! Just one more jog and one more bootcamp this week! I really think I am going to kick this weight this year! My goal: 145lbs.
I love this entry Patricia!! I love to read about mothers talking about their kids! I love to write and talk about my kids too! And your paragraph re your spouse hit a spot for me as that is how I was for 10 years and am so glad I finally found the one for me.....my crush, my attraction, my butterflies in the stomache every day, my excitement in my life!! Am glad I didn't settle for ok and found awesome!! Everyone should - it makes a difference in how you live and plan your life!! Kudos to you!! Inspiring and motivating!
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