One... is just a number :o)

I can hardly believe it! After a year of solid working out I have tipped the scale one pound heavier than when I started! I know, I know, there are many reasons why this could have happened, and I know that those of you reading this blog would offer your condolences and say "well, muscle weighs more than fat", or "you LOOK thinner", but this just can not be true! All those nights of wishing someone would just shoot me as I lay there in agony from the workout the day before... for what? An extra pound! Why is it that this has to be so difficult? Why is it that something that was so darn easy to put on is so friggen challenging to take off?? Sigh....

Ok, ok... 3.5" off my waist, 2" off my hips and an inch here and there... is an accomplishment~! I feel better and I am far more fit than when i started. I remember the first workout at the hall... I couldn't lift my butt off the ground to do planks, definitely couldn't do a regular pushup, and couldn't run a lap if my life depended on it! Now, I can do those planks, I can do regular pushups and I can run... uh... no I can't, but I am still trying!

So really, am I defined by that number on that scale? Does my personality, life, self confidence, and self worth depend on whether or not I am a certain size? LOL No, of course not. I would have to say that all those things would definitely be a lot "lighter" without all the excess weight. Being overweight is so tiring! But I am getting there.... And as of today, right now, I am on a mission.

My best friend is getting married in October of 2010. I have been asked to be the Maid of Honor =) So... I am determined to lose 100lbs. Does it seem excessive? or unlikely? Well... maybe it is, but, maybe its not. I have exactly 38 weeks to accomplish this task, which means, I need to lose an average of  2.6 lbs per week and an average of 10.4 lbs a month. Hmmmm.... Can it be done? Well.... we will see. Let's face it... with my 1 pound gain over a one year period.... I'd be happy to lose 5 pounds at this point! haha!

This is the picture that made me decide it was time to get moving. Well, actually this is not it, because I deleted the picture off the face of this earth!!! Never to be seen again! Too bad! It would have made a good reminder of where I would NEVER want to be again. But, this picture will do too. When I seen this picture I could not believe how ROUND I got!

So, here we go...